Reflections on my Father’s Loveletter

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone. To have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to a Christian, God says no. Not until you’re satisfied and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to me alone. I do love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction of knowing that I am. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t look around at the things that others have gotten or that I’ve given them. Don’t look around at the things that you think you want. Just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any would ever dream of. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have
planned for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me, and is thus perfect love. I am working even this minute, to have both of you ready at the same time. And dear child, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your own relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection that I offer you with Myself.

KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU. I AM ALMIGHTY GOD. BELIEVE AND BE SATISFIED.

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
—Psalms 37:4

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“But to a Christian, God says no. Not until you’re satisfied and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to me alone.”

I’ve been a Christian for almost 4 years now and during those times I’ve been a baby Christian, I always ask myself, “Bakit kaya kailangan na mahalin muna si God before anyone and anything else?” Since then, when I make a decision, I weigh things according to what God wants in my life.

Then, I remember someone says, “you cannot control everything”. Even though I’m conscious of my actions as a Christian, I made the mistake of following my own instincts, thinking that I’m still following God.

“I do love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. “

I’ve made one mistake and it affected my whole life. This is the time I chose superman over God. The feeling of being in love, being appreciated by a man and being ale to show love to another has stunningly overcame my love for Him. I admit, I don’t have that solid foundation.  Then, it happened. I was hurt.

This is the time I discovered that only in God my satisfaction is to be found and that I am not yet capable of having the perfect human relationship that God has planned for me. For I am not perfect still and because of this, I may just hurt other people because of my selfishness.

“Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry.”

I’m still learning to listen to Him. I’m still learning not to worry. I’m still learning to wait. I’m still learning to focus on Him. Because by the time I’m not waiting, he may just come around the corner. And by that time, I’m ready to enjoy and give the love I’ve experienced from loving God more.